A world of total solitary….. i need that badly

I feel so stranded inside this body of mine… I feel that the world is crushing down on me. I feel so caught up everything i am doing. I feel so pushed up the wall. I feel that the whole world is an alien to me. I feel like a foreign person to my own self. I dun know what happened to the stronger Guna but i can feel that she’s not here right now… I feel so tired of life that i wont be able to take in anymore of everything that is happening around… Life is so full of stuffs. Yes its such a big thing that we shouldn’t give up. I have so much to say and cry for.. Ever since 02 April 2006…. So many things happened and so many things i came across…. So many different kind of ppl and characters. I make mistake too but sometimes in those mistakes it takes 2 to do…. Whatever i m writting here is jus coming out straight from my heart… So it may be offline abit from what i m talking about.. *lol* i cant even explain myself anymore… Haiz, life is so unpredictable la…. Thats why they say life is a box of chocolate, u will never know what u gonna get…. It seems so true now then ever….. Hmm, if only i can get someone to listen to me and tell me, ‘Ya guna, you have every right to feel this way’ "Even i would feel such a way" You get what am i saying… jus agree with me instead of telling me what i m supposed to do and not supposed to do…. Life has to be lived no matter what… No one can deny that… When my ex left me, i took upon me not to cry anymore for anything and even if its too much to handle, i should only shed one tear…. Not more than that… Well, it seems to me that i took it very hard upon myself that vow that now nowadays no matter how hard i try to cry, the tears jus dont seem to come out at all. I feel so bottled up like a shaked champgne bottle… If the pressure is uncontrollable, its going to jus burst out and break the bottle… Thats exactly how i am feeling right now!!!!!!!

Yesterday night, my hubby and i were deciding on which programs to install in our SCV connections. So we were diuscussing about it and weighing the good and bad of each channel. After about ten minutes of discussion, finally we settle down to Vijay Tv and Star Movies. Ha ha, for a moment i thought that Vijay Tv is exactly like Sun Tv. But nope. It doesnt have all those lousy dump most stupid advertisment like Sun Tv and the programs are different. 10.00pm, there was this program like Crime watch and man the story was interesting. This mother strangled and killed her own daughter becos she was loving another caste man!!!! And when she was caught and brought back to the scene of crime, she showed no remorse or emotions. Her daughter’s dead body was right in front of her. Yucks!!!! And when the police were interogating her, she spoke with a straight face. Her voice was flat of any emotions! Oh my God. I cant believe this at all. When the policemen asked her to demo how she strangled her daughter, she sat on top of her daughter’s body and showed them….. Yeow!!! Gross man…. And her reason for killing her daughter was PRIDE!!! Aiyoh, i cannot believe my own eyes!!!! I was watching this program with my mother in law. *lol* she was watching the show in horror la. She was almost to tears when the show was halfway thru…. Well, one thing is for sure now. She’ll be at home more often now and i can spend time with her too.Though she can be irritating at times due to the house work and some other small issues, i still love to spend time with my mother in law. She can be very conversational at times. Well, its jus that not everyone can get along very well with everyone. Apart from my hubby, i know that Blood is always thicker than water…..

So coming back to the VIjay Tv, this weekend they are playing my hero’s movie la: Adutha Vaarisu!!!! Power…. We’ll see how are the programs in this channel. If its going to be the same as the Sun Tv, i m going to break the SCV set!!!! *joking la* I dun know. See how first la. Star movies also. If its not that worth, then maybe we’ll cancel that too…. Ha ha, then u guys must be wondering why take the SCV in the first place right!!! For animal planet lor…. My all time fav channel is that….. I love that channel. Its so informative ad interesting no matter what kinda show also….

She couldnt help it but to fume in anger whenever her thoughts drift to that articular day. Till today her mind has still not accepted that it has to be in her life that has all these mishaps to be happening. Why her!!! She has done no harm to anyone in particular lately for her to be in the recieving end of such a harsh punishment. ‘what did i do to deserve this’ This qns has been running thru her mind since that fateful day. Dont they have any respect? Didnt they learn it from the elders!!! Is this how they potray themself in public in front of so many others!!! Why wanna attract attention jus to gain sympathy!!! Why must it be me who have to be your scapegoat!!! Who do they think you are for me to give respect to? Bullshit your family values suckers!!! These and many more other thoughts have always been playing and replaying in her mind. She has been thru very tought times in her life ever since she was young. Been thru alot more then ppeps around her knows.

Citibank –customer service!

This is hilarious!!! .

Be sure and cancel your credit cards before you die.
This is so priceless, and so easy to see happening, customer service
being what it is today. Anyone who has dealt with an estate will agree
with this.

A lady died this past January, and Citibank billed her for February and
March for their annual service charges on her credit card, and added
late fees and interest on the monthly charge. The balance had been
$0.00, now somewhere around $60.00. A family member placed a call to
Citibank.

Here is the exchange:

Family Member: "I am calling to tell you she died in January."
Citibank: "The account was never closed and the late fees and charges
still apply."

Family Member: "Maybe, you should turn it over to collections."
Citibank: "Since it is two months past due, it already has been."

Family Member : So, what will they do when they find out she is dead?"
Citibank: "Either report her account to frauds division or report her to
the credit bureau, maybe both!"

Family Member: "Do you think God will be mad at her?" (I really liked
this part!!!!)
Citibank: "Excuse me?"

Family Member: "Did you just get what I was telling you - the part about
her being dead?"
Citibank: "Sir, you’ll have to speak to my supervisor." (Duh!)
Supervisor gets on the phone:Family Member: "I’m calling to tell you,
she died in January."
Citibank: "The account was never closed and late fees and charges still
apply." (This must be a phrase taught by the bank!)

Family Member: "You mean you want to collect from her estate?"
Citibank: (Stammer) "Are you her lawyer?"

Family Member: "No, I’m her great nephew."
(Lawyer info given)
Citibank: "Could you fax us a certificate of death?"

Family Member: "Sure." (Fax number is given)

After they get the fax:
Citibank: "Our system just isn’t setup for death. I don’t know what more
I can do to help."

Family Member: "Well, if you figure it out, great! If not, you could
just keep billing her. I don’t think she will care."
Citibank: "Well, the late fees and charges do still apply." (What is
wrong with these people?!?)

Family Member: "Would you like her new billing address?"
Citibank: "That might help."

Family Member: "

Odessa

, Highway 129, Plot Number 69."
Citibank: "Sir, that’s a cemetery!"

Family Member: "What do you do with dead people on your planet?

I’ve been staying at home a lot so I have forgotten how it feels like to be angered by salesmen!

You know how Thomson has this famous crispy prata place, and beside it is this famous bak chor mee place?

Yesterday I was there with Qihua, Zapzap and kit, and the boys wanted to see meatballs, so they all sat at bak chor mee coffeeshop.

I wanted a prata so I went to the prata shop.

I told the prata man (who is naturally Indian) that I wanted a kosong takeaway to eat next door.

From a pile of pratas in front of him, he took one out for me, and wanted to pack it up.

I smiled at him, acted cute a bit, and said I wanted a freshly cooked one, can?

He said all are freshly cooked and presented the prata for me to touch.

It was barely lukewarm!

He smiled and said ok, he will get me a freshly cooked one then.

At this point the chef was whipping up more pratas, and he finally cooked 4 kosongs and gave it to the guy who served me.

THAT IDIOT put the fresh pratas on plates and served other people! Now remember just moments ago he tried to give me the lukewarm ones, which were mountained on the table, waiting to be served.

Lo and Behold! The people served the fresh pratas were fellow Indians!

Now after he served these people, he came back, and WHEN I WAS STILL STANDING THERE LOOKING AT HIM, TOOK ONE LUKEWARM PRATA AND TRIED TO GIVE IT TO ME AGAIN!

SMILING! LIKE I WAS AN IDIOT!

I was so pissed I said forget it, I don’t want it anymore, and turned to walk away.

3 servers saw me turn and told me to wait just a while more, so I waited…

Presently came another 4 fresh prata kosongs, and guess what? SERVED TO OTHER INDIAN PEOPLE!

LIKE THAT I HOW??

They attempted to serve me ANOTHER lukewarm prata!!!!!! THREE TIMES OK! 3 lukewarm pratas that I SAID I DONT WANT!

Fucking racist muthafuckers!!!!

I HAD ENOUGH HOR!

Why Chinese people cannot eat prata is it? Lukewarm pile for Chinese ah?!

From now on I shall boycott prata. I die also I eat Chow Mein everyday. Fuck pratamen.

I bet they all just acting stupid and all laughed at me when I left looking so pissed. If that’s what it is, then they must all have superb acting skills man, they looked so confused and one idiot was still smiling at me.

p/s: I’m just talking about these 4 pratamen, so no offence to the rest of the Indians reading this, even if your father sells prata. Unless he sells crispy prata at Thomson…

http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2006/07/will-never-eat-prata-again.html

When my hubby told me this morning that the GST is going to be 7%, my heart jus sank to the ground la…. I mean i was already thinking which country shall i migrate to. Well, i have to say a few things la. Ths standard of living in Singapore is jus getting too high for ppl of my class and lower than us. I think we shud jus brand this country as the Rich Man’s Kingdom!!!! What do you think? I mean, everything in this country is jus getting too expensive. Wherever i turn i see price tags attached to everything. I mean, has the government ever tried to think from our point of view?! Have they ever wondered how we will struggle thru this? Well, they have the money to pull thru all these. But for, i have to werk so hard jus to earn something to pay up the bills that has already been imposed on me. And on top of that, i am doing another part time werk jus to cover up things that is outstanding. And i m renting out one of my room to give us the small amount of money to get things for ourself. You know, no matter how much of extra jobs u take up, it will never be enough. Pay day only lasts me one day. After that, the money is gone back to the government. Like that hpw to have baby. U think the baby bonus is enough to cover is it!!! NOOOOO. I dun think so. All these are jus gimmicks to brainwash us. Thats all. If i wanna say, i can spend one whole day also not enough la. So much of heart pain and hardwork to survive in this "posh" cpuntry which i was unluckily born into. Other countries has natural diasaster!!!! But ours has money disaster. So sick!!!

All i know is that i cannot bring myself to love this country anymore. I can only say this.

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It was getting a little crowded in Heaven, so God decided to change the admittance policy. The new law was that in order to get into Heaven, you had to have a really bad day on the day that you died. The policy would go into effect at noon the next day. So, the next day at 12:01 the first person came to the gates of Heaven. The Angel at the gate, remembering the new policy, promptly asked the man, "Before I let you in, I need you to tell me how your day was going when you died." "No problem," the man said. "I came home to my 25th-floor apartment on my lunch hour and caught my wife having an affair. But her lover was nowhere in sight. I immediately began searching for him. My wife was half naked and  yelling at me as I searched the entire apartment. Just as I was about to give up, I happened to glance out onto the balcony and noticed that there was a man hanging off the edge by his fingertips! The nerve of that guy! Well, I ran out onto the balcony and stomped on his fingers until he fell to the ground. But wouldn’t you know it, he landed in some trees and bushes that broke his fall and he didn’t die. This ticked me off even more. In a rage, I went back inside to get the first heavy thing I could get my hands on to throw at him. Oddly enough, the first thing I thought of was the refrigerator. I unplugged it, pushed it out onto the balcony, and tipped it overthe side. It plummeted 25 stories and crushed him! The excitement of the moment was so great that I had a heart attack and died almost instantly." The Angel sat back and thought a moment. Technically, the guy did have a bad day. It was a crime of passion. So, the Angel announced, "OK, sir. Welcome to the Kingdom of Heaven," and let him in. A few seconds later the next guy came up. To the Angel’s surprise, it was Donald Trump. "Mr. Trump, before I can let you in, I need to hear about what your day was like when you died." Trump said, "No problem. But you’re not going to believe this. I was on the balcony of my 26th floor apartment doing my daily exercises. I had been under a lot of pressure so I was really pushing hard to relieve my stress. I guess I got a little carried away, slipped, and accidentally fell over the side! Luckily, I was able to catch myself by the fingertips on the balcony below mine. But all of a sudden this crazy man comes running out of his apartment, starts cussing, and stomps on my fingers. Well, of course I fell. I hit some trees and bushes at the bottom, which broke my fall, so I didn’t die right away. As I’m laying there face up on the ground, unable to move and in excruciating pain, I see this guy push his refrigerator of all things off the balcony. It falls the 25 floors and lands on top of me, killing me nstantly."The Angel is quietly laughing to himself as Trump finishes his story. "I could get used to this new policy," he thinks to himself. "Very well," the Angel announces. "Welcome to the Kingdom of Heaven," and he lets Trump enter. A few seconds later, Bill Clinton comes up to the gate. The Angel is almost too shocked to speak. Thoughts of assassination and war pour through the
Angel’s head. Finally he says, "Mr. President, please tell me what it was
like the day you died." Clinton says, "OK, picture this. I’m naked, inside a
refrigerator……

If this for real, i would have killed the BITCH who created chaos on my wedding day and left this world in happiness.