Archive for September, 2007

Dun ask me why

Friday, September 28th, 2007

What happened? I dont have any idea. What went wrong along the way? What made this to be this way? I have no idea what went wrong  and who made the mistake? It takes two hands to clap. I may have done some mistakes too. But all is done unintentionally. Being proud, arrogant and jealous makes it even worse. Being competetive in a positive way makes it good and i like that. But i have this strong instinct that everything that has happened, its not with a sincere heart. In certain things, it shows. I’m being judged, and not appreciated. I’m not that valued person after all.

Hypocrites, have you come across in your life?

Thursday, September 27th, 2007

I have come across some and even now, i know of some. What makes me fed up about these ppl are, they don’t seem to know how irritating they’re. Let me share my experience of meeting such people. I find it very contradicting when friends can tell each other that they’re there for each other and behind their own back, they gossip about each other. I don’t get one thing though, you don’t like this particular person, tell them off their face and don’t have anything to do with that person. Instead, they can put a false front in front of that person and can still pretend to be nice in front of that person. Why do such things and yet still can boast around to other ppl that they are not that kind of ppl. I’ve seen this many times.

Another type that I’ve come across is, trying to "ankat" ppl to get into their good shoes. And that person doesn’t really know what the other person is thinking about them. And being so over dramatic in everything. Just awhile ago, someone told me to live for myself and dint depend on anyone person. Another person have ever told me not to be close to anyone so that if ever that person hurts you in anyway, you wont be so hurt cos you’ve maintained your distance with them.

I used to be very affected when I’m not given any attention from my friends. Very. Sometimes, i get very paranoid by it. But recently, things made me very strong. I’m lonely sometimes but yet i think i can survive it. I prefer it this way. I came to realize not every friend will be there for you all the way. And the one thats going to be there for you, may not always call you.

Life is so weird at times.